This year my desire is to wake up every morning living in wild expectation of the movement of God.. not only in my life but in other's lives as well. I desire to wake not under the daily up's and down's of circumstance but looking straight to my Heavenly Father and waiting to see what He is up to..to see His whole perspective and His beautiful conclusions. This is the most important New Year's goal I have in 2012.
By creative nature I am a feeler... the ability to feel and sense the depth of beauty in a moment..and then the dread or the anxst in moment. By nature I do not wake every morning with gusto,exhuberance, and overflow.. but instead as I wake up I think of all I SHOULD have accomplished the day before.. all that is needed to be done.. and the feeling of defecit begins. It's not a depression but instead like something chips away at the resolve, in the night, and in the morning I must fill up again with His ideals and views. I have had people pray over my mornings as they seem to be the time that the spiritual fight for clarity is the hardest... and I believe that I am on the edge of breakthrough. I live in a place where I look to Him but I am vividly aware of all that is in my perephrial view. I believe He wants to take me to the place where I see Him and His beautiful presence coats all else. I want to stand in His line with wild expectation, my mouth wide open ready for the beauty, the flavor, the joy He desires to fill me with.
In this year I am ready to stand in resolve again that my God is good all the time. That He is for me and not against me.. that He does own the cattle on the hill. that He desires to stretch my family's tent pegs and that most of all His desires are more awesome, more wild, more flavorful then anything I could come up with on my own. Everytime I look back on things I see the beauty of His way, His approach, His timing. May this be a year that we all say "yes", as we wiggle and giggle with excitement, to our beautiful Father in heaven.
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