I was walking the beach looking for shells and seaglass when all of a sudden I heard the Lord say "Maria I want to show you something extraordinary. " So I started intently looking around and wondering what He was going to point out to me when I slowly began seeing all of these coral pieces shaped into hearts. I love these pieces when I find them but usually it's like 2 or 3 at a time but on this morning they were everywhere. Some were laying on the top of the sand, some buried so I could only see the top sticking out, some slightly covered with sand... they were absolutely everywhere...
and then...
I heard Him say " My heart is ALWAYS available. You just have to look for it, be aware of it, and don't let the sands of ache or pain or disappointment in your heart cover it up."
I forget at times that His heart is available to me right at the moment of pain.. or the moment of questioning. I don't even have to mull something over in my mind on my own. I can ask Him right then for His perspective on the situation, or ask for words to say, or ask for wisdom and insight. He is available at all times to influence us , to drag us out of the pit, to change our attitude..
Yet it's so interesting that sometimes we do not want our bad attitudes to go away. we don't want to be handed hope or joy. We want to carry our angst like a backpack, to show others because that is suppose to heal us, or make us feel important, or even rightly validated.
We think ruminating in them does something.. I'm not sure what.. but something.
So my encouragement today is let the Lord trade you Joy for pain, Assurance for anxiety, Love for hate, and Healing instead of half a healing or no healing.
We serve a good God who says" I am here" "I Love you" " I call you masterpiece, beautifully and wonderfully made" " I cry with you" and " I heal". Will we allow Him to is the question.
