grief....

Funny how grief can sneak up at any ole time and tap me on the shoulder... today was full of plans.. but I just felt myself not being able to do the chores of the day.. a friend of mine on the base has just lost her sister to cancer and I was planning on going to the funeral tonight.. I didnt really consider that perhaps this would bring up anything in my own heart... and all I day I tried to rev my motor.. until I realized that I couldn't attend this funeral with all these grieving people because my grief can still feel so fresh and ironically enough alive.. like it has it's own heartbeat. Then a young student was contacted tonight and told that a close family friend had been killed. I went to pray with her and as she cried and shook I was saddened by the news just as much by the road this young girl will face now.. the road of grief that can disappear underfoot at any time.. and then reappear just as quickly. Tonight I am praying for everyone of us that have gone through loss.. loss of a friend, loss of a husband, a wife, a father, a mother, a baby, a child.. that we would remember how healing the presence of the Lord is..and that we would run there first and foremost...

2011 ....really?!

 New year .. new ideas.. new perspectives.. ='s new blog name and new blog spot.  The name Mix Matched Perfection came to me about 2 years ago.. I felt like the Lord was telling me that this described me and Bryan (Dempsey). We truly are mix matched in many ways.. but add the Lord and His perspective to this relationship and that brings in His perfection.

 We are wiping the dust of 2010 off of ourselves and are welcoming in the new atmosphere of 2011.  That dust includes the loss of our little Kirra. This has been one of the saddest things that our family has had to go through. Through every tear and every moment of missing her we continue to determine that God is truly the only refuge that heals and that He will bring something good from our family' loss.

  We look forward to the springtime this year as it will represent to us coming out of winter months in our personal lives. Both Bryan and I have started work out regiments and are determined to eat healthy.. We realize that wanting to have another baby at this time in our lives means we must be in the best shape of our lives so was can keep up with a new baby that has alot of needs and energy. We also need to keep up with our ever energetic Kieva!

Kieva is in kindergarten at the number 5 school in the state. He told me today that he wishes he could take a break from school for the rest of his life! He is doing great academically but we continue to seek the Lord to see if He wants us to homeschool next year..Kieva starts his first extra curricular activity next week.. volleyball club!! It happens once  a week at our parks recreational center.. we will see how that goes!

This will be our second year on Oahu working with YWAM. In this season I have the awesome privilage of mentoring the DTS staff girls, being the Kids Club director, heading up our intercession times on the base and overseeing the prayer room. I also have the privilege of overseeing our little boutique on base.

Bryan is the head of the landscaping crew and has 10 young people on his team. He continues to be the listener to many of the guys on the base. He is so good at reminding all of us that we are called to love each other, to forgive quickly, and to shower one another with grace and mercy.

We feel blessed to be a part of this training base that has been a part of sending out so many long term missionaries and continues to do so.

So bring it on 2011.. we are ready, excited, and have wrapped ourselves in the joy of the Lord.... because that is truly our strength.