grief....

Funny how grief can sneak up at any ole time and tap me on the shoulder... today was full of plans.. but I just felt myself not being able to do the chores of the day.. a friend of mine on the base has just lost her sister to cancer and I was planning on going to the funeral tonight.. I didnt really consider that perhaps this would bring up anything in my own heart... and all I day I tried to rev my motor.. until I realized that I couldn't attend this funeral with all these grieving people because my grief can still feel so fresh and ironically enough alive.. like it has it's own heartbeat. Then a young student was contacted tonight and told that a close family friend had been killed. I went to pray with her and as she cried and shook I was saddened by the news just as much by the road this young girl will face now.. the road of grief that can disappear underfoot at any time.. and then reappear just as quickly. Tonight I am praying for everyone of us that have gone through loss.. loss of a friend, loss of a husband, a wife, a father, a mother, a baby, a child.. that we would remember how healing the presence of the Lord is..and that we would run there first and foremost...